After 9 months of being disabled blogger i am back with the time and effort to do so. See, after struggling in our feasib, i had gone to practicum in a restaurant (where i have met my as of the moment boyfriend) and to another major time occupant - thesis and p.d. reports.

So why didn't i had the time to blog?

1. I had someone to talk to
2. I had someone to talks to me vividly
3. I had to read oblicon book before MWF
4. Accounting and B.A kept me buried with assignments
5. Thesis (need i say more?)
6. Hotel practicum (application and training) is exhausting
7. Expressing my thoughts is just a dial away - Didi.

So why do i have the time to blog now?

1. Ace Makiramdam has gone to Dubai
2. Loneliness fills me from moment to moment
3. My four years of college is kind of expiring
4. I am living a BUM's life
5. My free time is unlimited
6. I still have no plans of working since i have no clue what i want to do
7. Gossip girl - its in and made the blogging world go gaga over scandals and gossips

So back to having a boyfriend and kind of not having one: He had been so called "courting me" since he met me last April (during my resto prac at Mario's Kitchen Tiende) Got together last September 18 and he left for Dubai last February 10, this year. Got to admit, i cried for a week, and is still continuously crying. Fine, call me ma-drama, cause I also do think that im acting such, it was/still is very depressing for me. For you who can't understand, let me iterate to you this way : He was the first person who really cares about what I say. He is the only person i trust regarding my thoughts and my feelings. He is the only person I felt who cared for me (except for family). Having him away from me makes me feel all alone again.

11:44 PM

Your True Love Is an Aries

Why you'll love an Aries: An Aries has the red-hot seduction skills to woo you Never boring, an Aries will give you the romantic challenge you crave! Why an Aries will love you: You have the intensity and energy to go head to head with your Aries... And the undying passion to keep an Aries coming back for more.

I had my practicum @ Mario's Kitchen. I finished my practicum. I went to boracay with my bros and cousins. I went back home from bora. A lot has happened this summer.

I met a lot people from different backgrounds and grew to love them. It definitely changed my perspective about life in general - from how i see things to how i act on them. I got to appreciate my self more and see how broad i used to see life.

I learned how to be more open and realize how i can find more friends who will appreaciate me more than how i previously were. I know now that i make sense and will continue to be.

I grew back to having a textmate. Its like living in the whole "gsm is new" era but to someone i met. Its complicated and vague to my view - kinda like a summer fling right? Will it last after summer? We'll see.

2:45 PM

Im alive! I survived.

This semester made cry, made me not go to sleep, made me worry like hell if id pass and cry again. And it all happened in one sem, i wasnt exactly expecting that it could all happen in 6 months' time lapse.
Physics was a headache (oh, no, not the lessons, the teacher who gave me 67 claiming i havent passed 2 lab experiments -which I DID, I DID.)
Feasib was, uhm.. ok. That's the problem, i was just ok.
Catering caused a lot of headaches and gaps among us (ok, not really us, just them)
and its all over now.
Thank God.

The thing now is, i have to have my practicum - and i dont want the place i was assignd. Ok, i chose mario's but at Tiende, not Morato. AYAW!!

5:04 PM

After loads of research papers, quizzes, practical exams and interviews... i am now facing a new year full with sponsorship letters, MSQ analysis, catering contracts, a lot more interviews and functions. (Wait. Can i just breathe after that?)

Dang. A year that was, and a year that going to be. Well, on the bright side at least all these paper works keeps me thinking of how am i going to do it than thinking on how depressed i am.

Christmas was not the Christmas it has been, New Year was kinda like it also. Its just not the "old" holidays where everyone has the spirit to celebrate it. Where we think of it as an event to be just us. Now everyone seems to be concerned of everything else. Being an adult sucks - big time.

Now, not only do i have these effin' responsibilities, you are you - not needed to be pleased, not in need of surprise, not cute nor bubbly.

Yeah, what a start, im posting an entry that's on the negative radar and its new year. im just stressed and disappointed on how things turned out now. (yeah, now that im old enough to actually be given the permit to vote)

But its 2007. they say its lucky. im keeping my hopes up:D

BTW, what sucks more after these holiday season is the fact that im going back to school sporting 5 extra pounds! darn.

5:15 PM

what's the negative side of being the one different gender from my siblings? i get left home alone.

its like being caught in the middle of adulthood and fairytale land - they grew up and were allowed to grew up and yet for me, i just grew up but was never allowed to do so. they can go out whenever thay want to but in my case, i can only go out whenever they want me to. sucky.

most of my friends would consider me one freakin lucky girl : having a ride to and from school, any gadgets i wanted nadanadanda... but really, am i happy?!

i was happier then when we didnt had any pc's, numerous televisions, a load of clothes and a sure ride to school. now, seems to me, happiness is brought about by the material gadgets we have. i mean, the category of what makes me smile then is way different from now. now its proven : one can't have the best of both worlds - its either be happy with yourselves or be happy with what you have - ofcourse i prefer the first but you can never be contented with just that. happiness is weird - our needs our weird. then we had shelter, security, a good but not great source of living and a lot of time for ourselves and our family. now, we have shelter, less security, a better source of living but we had to give up sunday getaways, family malling and going to church as a whole. yeah, it sucks. i just miss the old us.

9:09 AM

i didn't notice this but kuya and john did...

10:23 AM

8:32 PM