everybody's bound to be happy :D

YYYSunday, November 19, 2006

what's the negative side of being the one different gender from my siblings? i get left home alone.

its like being caught in the middle of adulthood and fairytale land - they grew up and were allowed to grew up and yet for me, i just grew up but was never allowed to do so. they can go out whenever thay want to but in my case, i can only go out whenever they want me to. sucky.

most of my friends would consider me one freakin lucky girl : having a ride to and from school, any gadgets i wanted nadanadanda... but really, am i happy?!

i was happier then when we didnt had any pc's, numerous televisions, a load of clothes and a sure ride to school. now, seems to me, happiness is brought about by the material gadgets we have. i mean, the category of what makes me smile then is way different from now. now its proven : one can't have the best of both worlds - its either be happy with yourselves or be happy with what you have - ofcourse i prefer the first but you can never be contented with just that. happiness is weird - our needs our weird. then we had shelter, security, a good but not great source of living and a lot of time for ourselves and our family. now, we have shelter, less security, a better source of living but we had to give up sunday getaways, family malling and going to church as a whole. yeah, it sucks. i just miss the old us.

9:09 AM

YYY The girl

i am Joanni
19 but looks 16
3rd yr HRM student
Thomasian
Considerate but Impatient
Stylish but not Vain
Filled with cliques yet Solitary
my johari window
my xanga
my photobucket
my multiply
my friendster

*mail me*

YYY The wishes

Happiness
Recognition from Ms. Darkness
Olympus F-190!
Succesful Feasibility Study
To have my SUPERFRIENDS forever!

YYY She Adores

Family Get-Aways
Christmas
Holidays
Cello's Doughnuts & Dips!
Raisin with Cinnamon
Holy Kettle Corn
!Shopping!
Rachel McAdams
Amanda Bynes
Johnny Depp
Orlando Bloom
Jerry Bruckhaimer Films/Shows
Feel Good Tunes & Movies

YYY She Abhors

Plastics
Cynics
Pompous creatures
Cocky beings

YYY Archieve